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I have to dismantle the societal and ancestral programming that says a parent must always be there for their kids. You told me you hated me when you were 12 years old. You never told me why. It just got better from there. I must have given you plenty of reason to hate me. We said good bye forever during the divorce. But I was just mirroring back what you said to me… “fuck you I don't ever want to bla bla bla.” You ment it. I didn't then but I'm coming around now. Whenever I tell anyone my daughter won't communicate with me… They love to say “oh she will eventually reach out to you? Well it's be twelve years and we seem to be forced apart like two magnets repelling each other. Being in physical proximity to you at my sister's funeral made me feel ill. Why do I want more of that. My sister's did not understand and always wanted us to reconcile. I think we a bad for each other and for my health I have to disown you. You mother was the one who wanted to possess you. You adopted yourself into the Stewart family and maybe you hated me because you wanted me to be more like Mr. Stewart. I'm going to let go of my attachment to you now. So if you feel my energetic absence you will know why. If you want to write me a letter I'll read it. But will anything change? I'm putting this here because no one wants to listen. If I have the urge to reach out to you I will put it on here. I love I respect your decision and I'm going to leave you alone now. I've tried to pretend to be the best dad I could, but it wasn't enough for you. I can't shrink back into that role nor do I want to invest my time in getting to know the person you've become. Please have a good life with out me.
I have to dismantle the societal and ancestral programming that says a parent must always be there for their kids. You told me you hated me when you were 12 years old. You never told me why. It just got better from there. I must have given you plenty of reason to hate me. We said good bye forever during the divorce. But I was just mirroring back what you said to me… “fuck you I don't ever want to bla bla bla.” You ment it. I didn't then but I'm coming around now. Whenever I tell anyone my daughter won't communicate with me… They love to say “oh she will eventually reach out to you? Well it's be twelve years and we seem to be forced apart like two magnets repelling each other. Being in physical proximity to you at my sister's funeral made me feel ill. Why do I want more of that. My sister's did not understand and always wanted us to reconcile. I think we a bad for each other and for my health I have to disown you. You mother was the one who wanted to possess you. You adopted yourself into the Stewart family and maybe you hated me because you wanted me to be more like Mr. Stewart. I'm going to let go of my attachment to you now. So if you feel my energetic absence you will know why. If you want to write me a letter I'll read it. But will anything change? I'm putting this here because no one wants to listen. If I have the urge to reach out to you I will put it on here. I love I respect your decision and I'm going to leave you alone now. I've tried to pretend to be the best dad I could, but it wasn't enough for you. I can't shrink back into that role nor do I want to invest my time in getting to know the person you've become. Please have a good life with out me.